Well, my record holds true, only one day in a row feeling anything close to well. Today it was light headed and dizzy. I had 2 classes tonight and couldn’t wait to come home. I almost gave up on the Level 2 class, but was able to think through it and get everything back under control. I hope they thought they had a productive class. It’s really not the easiest to keep on top of the dog’s idiosyncrasies, abilities, and current attitudes and put it all together to come up with things to do that both challenge them and keeps them from tipping over. Good for me 🙂
Today I noticed I started to lose my hair. I wonder how long it will be till I will need to do something about it: wig, chemo cap, shave it off. I’m not looking forward to it. I don’t consider myself vain, but my entire life (from childhood), people have always commented on how wonderful my hair was. I agreed and moved on. I appreciated it but never thought a lot about it. Now I’m thinking of it. It’s going to be hard for me when it’s gone.
Tomorrow is my second chemo treatment. I can’t tell you how much I’m dreading it. I know I’m making it worse by stressing over it, but I can’t help it. I can’t be as sick as I was after the first one. If I could I’d just run and hide. Yea, but no.
That’s about it for now. I’ll let you know how it works out tomorrow. The sooner I write, the better it went (or that’s the theory I’m going for right now).
–joann